Spiritually Anorexic?
Sis Trina says I'm anorexic. YAR RIGHT. I eat so much and I'm still hungry all the time. Woohoo. Anyway, I think Sis Trina preached a powerful message on Sunday. Don't you? (: She's going to squash me for this. Haha.
Personally I was really impacted by the Word of God in that sermon. It can be so easy to conveniently forget that we need to keep eating to keep growing. I'm sorry, but I'm one of those who really can just forget to eat. *gasps* Especially when doing something I'm really into. And it just scares me how parallel this can be to my walk with God. I love the worship team to bits and serving is just...... I wouldn't give it up unless God tells me to. I love my buzzgroup too! And I can just spend hours of prayer and tears on them. And in all of that, I've oft forgotten that I need to be fed too.
Something really hit me very hard as I was having my time alone with God tonight in my lonely room in uni hall.
"I am the Lord your God...Open wide your mouth and I will fill it."
Psalm 81:10
Open wide! There's no point having a hunger in your heart if you're just going to stop at that. A hungry heart will only be fed if the 'mouth' is open wide. Chew on it.
One thing I've come to realise is that even if your tummy's growling and rumling (grumling(: ), if you just ignore it, somehow it stops after a while. You forget you're hungry. It's a brain thing apparently. Our walk with God is not so different. You stand at the altars of the LT on Sunday at 125opm saying you are hungry, and you want so much more of Him. Then comes Monday.
Holy Spirit: "So, friend, what's for 'lunch' today?"
Friend: "Umm I'm lazy to 'eat' now. Later la."
Holy Spirit: "Ok 'dinner' time.."
Friend: "Err.. Chelsea-Liverpool tonight leh.."
And it goes on and on. Soon you'll forget you were hungry at all.
NB: Surveys show that Anorexia always starts with excuses.
If you really want God, and you're desperate, just OPEN WIDE. He can't fill you if you don't. Don't expect Him to force feed you.
Hungry. Very hungry.
Jas Choe
posted by IGNYTE, Trinity@PL @ 12:57 AM
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